This lockdown was hardly unexpected, in fact I asked for new pyjamas and loungewear for Christmas in anticipation of a long winter spent mostly at home. Expected doesn’t mean easy though and I think the government’s insistence that schools are safe even on the first day of term gave me a false sense of hope that schools would remain open. I struggled heavily with the news that home learning is resuming and the first day was incredibly challenging balancing the needs of four children, three whom can’t complete school work independently and the eldest who still needed lots of clarification. It all felt too much and I hastily sent emails to teachers asking them to lower their expectations of us.
The second day involved less tears from all of us, a little compromise and intelligent use of the tin of Christmas chocolates I hadn’t brought out yet, and over the week we are slowly slotting into a routine where most of the set work is completed, and there is less guilt for the pieces that are not. I imagine much like the first lockdown which I documented weekly, this is an attitude that will change daily for the entire course of home schooling but I am hopeful that we can find a balance that helps us get through this long winter.
We are lucky to live near the seaside so we always have somewhere beautiful to walk for our allowed exercise, although the children have been complaining that they would rather find a forest or something different once in a while. I have invested some Christmas money in a giant insulated bottle so we never again have to leave the house without hot chocolate and I am trying to get outdoors every day as I know my sanity needs it! This lockdown is going to be harder, we are missing the sun and we have some idea how long this is going to last rather than taking it week by week. I know there will be days I am overwhelmed by it all and that is just something we will have to deal with. I hope the start of Lockdown 3 hasn’t been too tough on you.
We finished all our work before lunch today, a combination of starting earlier and less being set on Friday, and they are all relieved that the first week is over and they can relax. I am trying to catch up on all the things I have missed this week; emails, writing and perspective. I know in some ways I have it easier, we are lucky to have enough devices for the children to work on, a warm house and plenty of food and my job is very flexible. In other ways they have it hard, getting only 1/5th of my attention. I believe it is ok to feel it hard even if your circumstances are ideal. I am thinking of all those that have it hard, and those that are struggling in any way.